If you are set on this, then do crimes that, if successful, would improve your life.
Steal billions of dollars from bad corporations. Steal food to live, trespass to be in shelter.
Personally, I would try to go to the cheapest town and get on benefits. Each state has a really cheap place to exist. There are usually no jobs, but often friendly people.
An apt quote from “Rick and Morty” is “no one exists on purpose”.
Your parents’ issues don’t need to be yours.
I hope you don’t carry this hurt forever. Sorry.