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Cake day: June 25th, 2023

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  • I spent several months last year actively looking for a therapist. I’m not talking a single casual Google search and done. I’m talking months of calling, emailing, physically driving to. The only therapists I could find who were taking on new patients and would accept my insurance were magic Jesus Crystal types whose “therapy” was little more than thinly veiled proselytizing.

    Given how it seems people need to go through several therapists to find the right one, I gave up after failing to secure the first.

    I almost fell for that whole better help scam but fortunately it was exposed for the personal data mining nonsense that it is before I signed up.


  • I learned of my father’s death weeks after the fact. My involuntary reaction was an emotionless, “huh.” I think I was forty eight years old at the time.

    I hadn’t spoken to him for over thirty years, and had suffered decades of nightmares that he’d found me.

    After learning he had passed, the nightmares finally ended, but the lifelong fight or flight tendency to keep to myself and never rock any boat remains.

    My sister has said that she’s jealous of my daughter because we have a pretty close father/daughter bond - something my sister never knew and never will.

    In my fifties now, I generally avoid human interaction as much as is physically possible. While I could cite other reasons as to why I’m this way, I can confidently point a rigididly extended index finger at dear old dad as the foundation of it all.

    My parenting duties complete, I mostly just exist waiting for the sweet sweet embrace of death when I’ll no longer have to go make money for the man or pretend that I enjoy the saccharin sweet small talk of co-workers who don’t give two shits about me or anybody else, but professional decorum for the win, right?

    I don’t even look forward to weekends because those are just two day stints of solitude doing chores so I’m ready to go make more money for the man on Monday.











  • People bring their dogs to work all the time in my office. Fortunately, all of us are dog lovers, so we all enjoy it.

    The other trend that doesn’t bother me, but surprises me is that I’d estimate about two thirds of the people in my office vape at their desks.

    We also have bean to cup espresso, which is nice. People will go find high end beans and contribute them. It works out nicely.

    We’re highly educated professionals, damnit!



  • I thought this was North Korea for the following reasons:

    The street is largely empty

    There’s a foreign car

    The license plates are significantly different than what I remember

    Never heard of Pangyo

    Looking all of those things up (except the empty street) I realize I would absolutely not recognize the country I lived in thirty years ago